CUTEST TALKING DOG!!!

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Dear Michael.

I was watching Michael Jackson on  Channel 5 today~

And I was suddenly filled with a overwhelming urge to blog about this incredible King of Pop.

Dear Michael,

You were...

Someone I never really knew.

I never really listen to ur songs.

I never ever watched u perform.

I dun really read about your news.

I only know that u r MEGA FAMOUS.

But today I chance upon ur concert telecast on local tv.

And you are awesome.

Amazing. 

MAGICAL. 

Wat can I say... No words can describe.

Your voice ... Flawless.

Your dance... Mesmerizing.

Your personna ... I can't even use words to describe how amazing you are.

I can literally feel you coming to live. thru the TV box. 

Tat's how good you are.  

You are so real as a person. (In my eyes) ...

I used not to understand ...

Wat's the big deal abt Michael Jackson.

But now I learnt.

I can't just listen to wat they say.

I gotta see it.

I gotta hear it.

Experience MYSELF.

I can't say I am a fan.

For it would be so unfair to all your true fans who had been loving you unconditionally thru the years.

But...

I reallie do love you.

I love you as a person.

The person you are.

Never afraid of change.

Never afraid to experiment.

Never afraid of being different.

Never afraid live your life. YOUR WAY.

The Michael Jackson way.

You are an inspiration.

And I hope you are happy now...wherever you may be.

R.I.P

My dear Michael .

Your legacy lives on~

Our love goes on~

*You are not alone*

Love,

AliciaYSL

Gone... with the wind.

Today, Someone dear to me had pass away~

He watched me grow...from a 1 day old baby, to the 23 yr old today.

I watched him grow... from grey hair eventually to white.

I remember that just last Chinese New year... He was playing with my darling girl Kiki... feeding her "Bao" ....His toothless smile grinning merrily with eyes close...so  adorable. He looked happy.

I remember him smoking at the voiddeck with his friends... Always smiling when we greeted him.

Though conversation was jus polite greetings,

Though we are not as close as I would love it to be,

Though we only see each other every 2-3 months,

He is still someone close to me.

simply because... Blood is always thicker than water.

I woke up in the morning... And was shocked to hear the devastating news.

but... everyone will die one day. Tat's life.

Nothing to be surprised.

It's jus that he chose to go .... on Father's day.

It's jus the way he choose to go... with the wind.

It's jus the amount of courage that he must had muster up before it happened.

It's jus that life had been good to him in his golden years.

It's jus that he had so much to live for.

It's jus that we thought he was happy.... contented.

It's jus that we dun understand why.

It was sudden. much too sudden.

It was quick. much too quick.

It was scary. much too scary.

Just last week , we could still hear his voice asking us to buy food for him.

And today. tomoro. The day after. we can never see him again . nor hear him again .

The reality that he chose to go this way suck.

Death jus feels so final.

His timeline has stop.

An eternal full stop.

No chance for regrets.

No chance for sorry.

No chance to do things better.

It has ended.

How can he leave... jus like that.

I feel that it is so selfish.

And I can't help but feel sorry for him too...

He must have been miserable. depressed. unhappy. lonely. hurt.

But how would the loved ones he left behind feel?

What had they done wrong to deserve this?

Where had they gone wrong?

We thought we had done everything right.

But we were wrong.

The fact that this is an selfish act remained.

Somehow... I feel so bothered.

In the recent weeks... months...

I had ever thought of ending life prematurely too.

Dun be too shocked.

I am not as perfect as u think I am.

I can't help but feel that I am a living dead.

I can't help but feel lost. so lost in this big big world.

I can't help but feel afraid of all the big boys and big girls out there.

I can't help but feel that I can't catch up .

I can't help but feel unhappy.so unhappy.

I can't help but feel that I had no purpose in life.

I can't help but feel there is no reason for life.

I can't help but feel afraid to live.

I can't help but feel afraid to be hurt.

I can't help but feel afraid to love. except for my girl Kiki and my family.

I can't help but feel so tired. too early.

I can't help but feel so drained.

In my glamourous world.

In my high flying world.

In my glitzy world.

In my beautiful world.

Everything seems so perfect. All too perfect.

ALL TOO PERFECT.

It's falling apart.

In this "perfect" world of mine,

I have become weaker.

I am losing myself.

In fact, nobody is really interested in who you are.

They only want you to be who they want you to be.

Nobody cares.

I can't help but feel so tired of being that perfect girl. your perfect girl.

But I am afraid.

I am afraid of losing it all .

In my world.

Happiness is short lived.

superficial in fact.

I know it all too well.

But short lived happiness is better than nothing.

At least it helps me get through another day.

In my world.

I have to be good.

Because if I am not... I dun deserve it all.

and I will lose it all.

I am so drained... from holding this fort.

But I can't relax.

Cuz it will collapse.

It's either ALL. or nothing.

I've seen it happen. all too many times.

when have I become this person.

when have things become like that.

Happiness seems so far.

Happiness seems so out of reach.

Happiness seems to only come from the things I buy.

Happiness seems to only derive from the way I look.

Happiness seems to only come from being approved of.

SUPERFICIAL.all too superficial.

It is a superficial world. It's reality girl.

I've seen it all too often . It's true.

These days true happiness is when I look at my baby girl Kiki.

These days true happiness is when I am with my family.

I am not as superficial as I wanna be.

I wanna be carefree. happy.

But... How can I?

tell me ... How can I?

when the world is judging you?

The will say. You are stupid. STUPID. for giving it up.

Too smart for her own good.

How can I?

when I have tasted all the sweetness of the fruits.

Will I be able to go back and live simply?

Yes. I am a living dead.

waiting for my time.

bidding for my time.

praying for salvation.

so... when I hear about him this morning...

I admire his courage.

I envy that this is the end of the journey.

but I have no courage. no courage at all to go.

Because I am scared. a coward.

and I love my family too much to hurt them like that.

but...

Maybe... jus maybe someday I will. :)

In the meanwhile... every Father's day, You will be remembered always. :)

Always in my heart,
Alicia

SEE RED.

SEE RED!

To reward my darling readers ... :)

I've decided to go over the top with my camwhoring antics!

because I am lazy... hahahaa... 

hahhahaha...

If u hate my face. G E T O U T N O W!

:P

My latest obsession.

Sultry RED LIPS.

.S E X Y.

.F I E R C E . F I E R Y.

Love the rings from Mr B.

Yes. I'm taken. No longer... available.

.F U N K Y.

look of ~

L O V E

tell me baby~

have u got enough of me ?

no darling~

never enough.

for Mr B.

love

Alicia

VERY HAPPY!

Dear *Lucky STAR*,

I have waited so so so long for you.

And now the Opportunity comes.

And I am truly excited and anxious.

THANK YOU, for making my day...

And I hope I won't dissapoint you. Once again.

*So happy now... *

Signing off....
From san-francisco...

Alicia ~ :)

Pan-Pacific With Mr. B...

Will be leaving for a long 8 days to Korea and San Francisco tomoro...

Was actuallie looking forward to the flight till something crop up... haiz... TIMING not right.

Alicia cross my finger and hope everything turns out as I wished!!! :)
*I really really want this so much!*

Anyway... due to me being so busy and all.... I have no time to blog properly.

I NEEDA A BREAK....

The good news is...it's coming soon! :) YAY!!!

Anyway,  I was @ Pan Pacific Hotel with uber sweet Mr B. last week....

And it was............... simply sweet and gorgeous. :)

Some short clips of me  having fun.

I may look like a crazy woman in some scenes.... BE WARNED. hahahaha...

Loads of pics... will blog properly bout it!

Me running around in the room with Kiki...


Yes. u guess it! I manage to "smuggle" her in . :P

But... she behaved well. :)


Me teasing Kiki on the bed...

"Towel-Fight" With Kiki...

Will miss my Mr B. and My darling Kiki~

Love my precious so much~

AliciaYSL

STUFFED WITH FOOD!!!!!!!!!

FOOD FOOD and MORE FOOD!

Watched Sex and the city with Mr B...

The show is fantastic!

ENJOYED IT!

The clothes were amazing!

Early start at Crystal Jade for my favourite Dim Sum Breakfast~

Seriously, other than it's Dim Sum, I actuallie dun reallie love Crystal Jade very much...

so, here you go..

I think I was commenting in the first pic that I dun have a cleavage... so there... I decided to fake some! boo~

Loads of yummy foodie coming up!

The century egg is love~

I finished the whole plate by myself as Mr B. doesn't take it...

Order wrongly...

some fried wanton with sweet and sour sauce...

I didn't reallie fancy though Mr B. like it!

Lotus leaf rice...

I like~

a must for dim sum!

This is reallie nice!

YUMMY!!!

wat can I say!

As u can see...before we can snap a pic... I already took one le... :P

I LOVE EGG TARTS!

esp... MINI TARTS!!!

After a super delicious Brunch, we rushed to watch sex and the city...

After the show, headed to my home...

Pick up my Babygirl Kiki...

And we headed to a nearby mall...

And we was hungry again!

So we snacked on KFC!

And then... my Favourite Hobby!

Feeling like an  "Obasan" shopping in the supermarket...

My Favourite Supermarket : NTUC Fairprice

HAHAHA...

And I only share this exclusive hobby with my love ones... hee..

Frozen Food!

lovelove

LOVE the Japanese Food section ...

Wat should I buy... so many choices!

Not only does Mr B pamper me... He reallie dotes on Kiki baby too!

He bought delicious chicken and cheese meat dinner for her!

A rare treat for Kiki ...

haha...

As her very strict mummy controls her diet strictly due to health issues...

besides, I reallie dun wanna spoil her~

Looking my "Baobei" wolfing down her food!

And then we went to have some Korean Food...

And apparently, this is a reallie popular joint...

we gotta wait for more than half hour to get a table...

It was fully packed!

And mind you...it's not fastfood prices.

but seriously, The food is good!

A tired me after all the waiting!

I HATE WAITING!

After ordering and some waiting,

Here comes the sumptous spread~

This BBQ pork ribs is HEAVENLY!

MUST TRY!

Enjoying my meal!

Abrupt end.

Thanks, My dear Mr B...  Jus wanna say, I appreciate everything you have done~

And I reallie enjoyed myself, though it's jus simply a day with you~

I feel happy and contented... completed~

LOVE,
Alicia