*Angel's tears*

Feeling cold and empty tonight...

Feeling I have lost you...

Feeling very lonely for a long time...

Feeling tired and disappointed....

Feeling fragile and weak...

Feeling hurt beyond words...

Feeling... no more feelings...

Jus numbed...

No more tears streaming down the face~

No more soothing words...

No more loving embrace...

No more kisses....

No one who understands me more than you...

No more you...

No more me...

No more us...

Everything replace with an empty dull numbing ache...

The memories...used to comfort me when I am at my lowest point...

now... representing a very sharp knife....

stabbing at my bleeding heart....

stabbing at the sore open wound...

...over and over again....

...making me hardly able to breathe...

...struggling to stay alive...

...so cruel....

The sweet memories...

trying with all my might to forget...

For they hurt too much...

Call me cruel~

But I wanna forget them...

For it's making me go crazy~

(but why... why is it etched so so so deeply in my mind...? )
(everytime I close my eyes... I see ur loving gaze... )
(I can still feel the warmth of your hand holding me tightly....)
(I can still remember every detail on ur face.... my dear...)

I dun wanna feel anything anymore....

I dun need sympathy from you.

I dun need mean words from you.

I dun need the painful silence... between us.

I rather not feel...

I rather put on a smiling face for strangers....

even if I am bleeding inside...

For that minute, when my face is smiling....

I STOP THINKING OF YOU.

For that minute, when my face is smiling...

I FIND RELEASE.

*I will miss you deeply*

But this smile will never be at you again.

Take care~ My friend~

Life is full of uncertanities...

I wonder...

How much love can one give...?

How much love can one feel...?

How much sacrifice should one make...?

How great is thy love....

Take care~

My friend~

*My sweet Getaway*

To those who wishes my dardar "dead"...

Here's a piece of VERY BAD NEWS...

He is very much alive!!! :)

I dun understand why some ppl just dun have any nice words to say... Wat freaking business is it of yours what happens to my love ones...?

FOR SOOOO LOONG... a certain someone hasn't been leaving comments on my bloggie...

I thought maybe he's D***!!!

... and... seriously... I'm totally not missing his presence here as well....

There is a limit to everything... !

I say... If you have nothing pleasant to say... then dun comment at all~ (-.-)

Anyway... Here's a post on my sweet Indonesia Batam trip with Darling~ :p

(We are still sweet and loving~ blah~ )

I had four days of offdays last week.. thus decided to go for short vacation with dardar...

It is just 2 days but it's reallie relaxing...

Spas and good food + Darling is love~

*Alicia having breakfast @ vivo ... Mee Pok with extra chilli!!!*

I totally miss MEE POK esp when I am overseas~

Fulfilling the duty of a loving girlfriend... Filling in the immigration forms for me and dar~ (r u puking? ) :P

Then after a pleasant 45 minute ferry ride across the island, and a 30minutes car ride, we arrived at our hotel...
*The entrance*

*Our Welcome drink* pretty colours... and nice grapefruit drink~

I love the hotel room... It's very comfy... but one complaint~ The check in process is super Looonngggg~

And I am pretty frustrated as we have to wait up till and hour!!!

I think it's way too long~

Lucky, I have my darling by my side to keep his super restless and impatient baby company~

Me waiting for the room to be ready~ (@.@)

So bored~ I started to play with flower petals deco~ (#.#)

OOPS!!! Dar caught the cheekier side of me~ :P

Boring boring boring.... Lemme play games on my phone~ :)

CAM WHORING!!! A GREAT WAY TO PASS TIME!

Darling~..... How long more to go~ Go speak to the receptionist can!?!!

GO SCOLD THEM... THREATEN THEM... WATEVER...
I WANNA CHECK IN NOW~ (-.-)

And finally, WE STEP INTO THE ROOM!!! HOORAY~

The bed... Wonderfully comfy... :)

Toilet~ PeeWeePee...

You know wat... I didn't even know there was this wonderfully amazing pool untill I saw this picture that my dardar sent me!!!

WHY DAR NEVER TELL ME ABOUT THIS GEM...

IF NOT... I for sure jumped straight in de~ (*.*)

somemore got Jacuzzi~

The view of Indo from our room~ :P

Tat's me going..." How long more u wanna take pic dar... I wanna go do SPA!!! " :p


After a quick change of clothes... off we headed to pamper our tired bodies~

We hired a car to take us around town~ :)

The chaffeur~

IndoThai~ Great ambience... Affordable prices...

The best of all... Great Massages and scrub... Much Love by Alicia*

Me and Dar did a three hour spa package..

Which includes one hour body scrub and two hours traditional Indo massage~

Total damages 75 Sin dollars for two...

Hallelujah~ I am in heaven~ (*.*)

After a pampering session, we headed back to the hotel... Freshen up abit...

..and ... we are out again~

Off we go... for some GREAT FOOD...

SEADFOOD.... The way to go to fill my man's growling tummy~

GIGANTIC FISHES.... Does anyone actuallie eat those?

Dinner at the Kelong~ (^.^)

YUMMY FOOD~

Alicia and Dar's FAV : BLACK PEPPER CRAB~

The Freaking EXPENSIVE Lobster...(more ex than the crab leh)...somemore so tough!!!

Thought Lobster's supposed to be tender and fresh... ?

DUN LIKE IT!!! Won't order it again...

The coconut juice that is LARGER than my head!!!!

Though it's big.... but it's reallie nothing Fantastic...

A tad diluted~

Hey ... I can be Wacky too!

Wassup! :P

DARLING... SO HOT!!!! the food is so spicy!!! water please~

mmmmMMMMMmmmmm yummmiee~

After dinner, I drag darling with me to the salon for a hair spa...

haha...

Girls~ we needa take care of ourselves from top to toe dear~

Poor darling... waited close to an hour for me~

Thanks dar... Love ya so much~

After my hair spa, we decided to call it a day... and head back to hotel...for a good night's rest~

Next morning, We had breakfast together~ :)

After Breakfast, we headed out to town ... for some shopping... though we didn't reallie buy much stuff...

Then we headed back home, Singapore~ :P

It was great short getaway ~

Thanks for everything Baby...

I enjoyed myself loads~

Now I'm in South Africa, and I miss u loads~ (*.*)

*To smile from within again*

Will be flying off to Johannesburg, South Africa tonight... midnight...

Not reallie looking forward to working when everyone's asleep...haiz~

Will be having a steamboat dinner as Father's day celebration... belated one~

Still feeling rather disappointed, down and upset~

Still recovering from being sick~ Shit! Jus realise forgotten to take medicine for today~

Though work is piling up... I am enjoying it... as it helps take my mind of thinking~

I hope to be happy again soon~

I hope to be able to smile from within soon~
Not smile to fake my unhappiness... so ppl won't ask~

HAPPY BELATED DADDY'S DAY~

*HAPPY BELATED DADDY'S DAY!!!*

Dad was super sweet to me~

He decided to postpone the celebrations till I am back... which most prob tomoro~ :)

Just touchdowned from India~

Super tired...haha... again~ :)

You know... working is super tiring!!!

ESP JETLAG!!!

And my medication doc gave me causes drowsiness~ Normally, It doesn't reallie make me drowsy... cuz I think I have a strong mind!!! :P but the ones he gave me this time, SUPER STRONG~... makes me feel giddy and faint... then ...KNOCK OUT!!! (-.-)

Anyway, some overdue pics that my dear Wendy babe uploaded onto FB...

Super love her cammie... take nice pics... better than mine... she got cool blings on it!!! *envy*

Wendy babe, Thanks for tagging me~ ;P

Enjoy the pics dearies~

*Our pretty looonnngg legs*

*The babes... Wendy , Catherine, Alicia*
*Alicia and Shirley T*

*Wendy and Alicia* miss my girl~ :P

*Shirley T and Alicia*

*when can I go dancing with u again babe? *

*Miss ur "Di Pan dong zhuo" *

*The camwhoreres*

And that will be all for today lar...

I miss dancing... (-.-)

I miss dressing up to the nines... camwhoring with the girls...

grooving to the beat of the music~

Playing every move of da body~

I miss Ktv-ing!!!

I miss hitting the high notes...

(veins almost popping out of da neck)

I miss having my own personal concert...

but...

My roster is so tight~

haiz...

FLAT-OUT SNORING~ (-@-)